I'm tired of crying.
And feeling guilty.
And incapable.
And totally helpless.

I've lost weight.
I eat the same breakfast everyday.
The same lunch too.
And more often than not, the same dinner too.
And there's aplenty reasons why I'm ill every fortnight.

I ooze negative energy.
Stay away.

Sorry for my long absence from LJ. I can't believe it took me this long to figure out how to get past the GFWC. I can finally access the entire world wide web. Hello Youtube! Hello LJ! Hello Xanga! Hello .hk! Bye bye "Page timeout"!

I'm a happy camper, for now.

I never thought a jet-setting lifestyle would reduce me to tears, but it did. Sometimes I wish I could just call it quits, but it's not like any other way would make me any happier. I thought I've grown, only to realize that I've grown into someone that I don't want to become. I want to be something else, yet I don't exactly know how to get there. I hate the fact that I cry, but my tear ducts have a mind of their own that I have no control over. I loathe saying goodbyes, just having said my hellos. I really should stop whining.

I'm falling, and whining, and falling.

CNY is somewhat different this year. Instead of having reunion dinner at some fancy Chinese restaurant, Her Majesty decided to cook up a feast at home. She probably cooked enough to feed 50 very hungry giants, when there's only 15 rabbits in the house. I had no idea that the kitchen at home could produce that much food in one afternoon. The abalone, crabs, duck, fish and soup were boxed and strategically distributed to relatives' homes with high visitation rates. We are skipping CNY once again this year and heading down-under to do some bad business on the wrong side of the bed. :)

Happy Lunar New Year boys and girls! May the new year bring you much luck and prosperity!

On a completely different note, I chanced upon a pack of cats on a trial photography walking tour in Macau and took the above photo with the alpha baby that I hijacked from my facilitator. More pictures of the series are on Flickr.

Check-in. Check-out. Visa. Immigrations. Arrive. Security. Customs. Depart. Forex. Dry skin. Back pain. Exhausted. Stressed. Broke down.

No LJ.